The White Princess

Thank You STARZ for The White Princess, during this long Outlander Hiatus this is a wonderful "period" drama replacement! I mean I am only 2 episodes in but it has me hooked!!!
Check out the trailer.....


Anyone else watching this??!!

It's EXXpensive to be ME

Some of you might know Erika Jayne from her numerous #1 Dance Hits, maybe her time currently on DWTS where she is killing it with Gleb....

 Most of you know her from The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills where she is THE fan favorite! But no matter how you know her, people love her! As do I! When I heard she was performing in Denver I was so excited!

Oh you know it's just me and my new pal Erika! LOL! And might I add I thought I had on a ton of make-up since it was a night out but next to her and her hair I am so plain Jane! LOL! And yes, she is really so stunning in person and that tall because of her SKY high THIGH high boots!

 Ya we were pretty close because it was a rather small venue, a night club in Denver! It was super neat!

SO...... Here is the low down.... She didn't take the stage until 12:30AM!!! And she did 5 songs. her dancers were awesome.... Gleb her DWTS partner came out and danced (which was AMAZING) and ABC was there filming. She doesn't sign live but she performs! And she is super super small. She is stunning. During the meet and greet we were each literally ONLY given 5 seconds to say HI (I told her she was stunning) and snap a pic! After waiting around for 2 1/2 hours for her it was a quick whirlwind! It was fun and Gleb is soooo good looking! LOL! I mean she knows what her crowd likes and gives it! Just look at this fierce picture....

 I mean what is not to love about a fully rhinestoned body suit and thigh high boots?!?! For real.

 Overall it was a lot of fun but getting literally only 3 hours of sleep was BRUTAL!!!!!! But for Mrs. Exxpensive I would do it all again!

SALE!!!!

You guys, I just posted a HUGE closet clean out and I have over 35 items up for sale on my Facebook Page!!! All prices INCLUDE shipping and most are new with tags or never been worn!
Click HERE to go shop or here is also the link! https://www.facebook.com/nicole.d.savage/media_set?set=a.10155229011569553.1073741863.504574552&type=3&pnref=story

Infertility

 Hey guys.... TGIF!! SOOOOO I have news..... I got a TATTOO! This is my 3rd and that is something I thought I would never say! LOL! But this wasn't a spur of the moment but something I have been thinking about for months! My good friend Rebecca was nice enough to come with me, which made it much more fun!!

The next pictures I call the many faces of pain. And I get it... this is a small tattoo and I am being a baby but you guys, the inside of your bicep is soft and I GREATLY underestimated the amount of pain. I got nauseous and had tears brought to my eyes! Luckily it only took a little over 30 minutes to complete this. 

 This is the Tattoo artist is who did my weenie dog for Oscar last year and when I showed him my ideas he took them and created something new that would look good. I trusted that he clearly knows best and he was so kind when I made him change the placement of the tattoo like 3 times before we started!! Look at my face... speaking of weenies, I look like a HUGE one.........

 This is the look of I HAD NO IDEA IT WOULD HURT THIS BAD combined with not breathing. Rebecca was a wonderful photographer, thanks friend!

SO here she is....... This is 9 Chevron/Arrowheads and each one represents an infertility procedure. 7 IUI's and 2 Rounds of IVF. They are in a row because as you go up it changes you and the pain from the tattoo reflects the pain of everything we went thru. This is also a play off of the Military ranking system... the more "Chevrons" you have the higher the rank and the more I went thru the more it changes you. This is also a reminder that I am MUCH stronger than I though I was and that I/we did everything we could. I did it, I survived what I thought at times I wound't. And I love that you wound't know the meaning of this unless I told you. 

OH ya, it hurts today... thats for sure and I will show more pictures as the swelling goes down and you can see the actual tattoo better. Maybe this will help bring me closure? That would be nice. 

Anyways..... I DID IT! ARGH!!!!!!

Yes

Are you a YES person?? People ask you say YES, opportunities open you say YES....... that sounds like a good thing but really it isn't. I have a problem with saying yes to everything because I can but not really thinking SHOULD I???? Is what I am saying yes to going to Nourish me or drain me?

The past few years our/my only purpose has been to get pregnant and being at a doctors office or not feeling well took up all my time. SO this year I wanted to fill my life again with things that make ME happy and I am not sure I have done that. I said YES, YES, YES and my life is FULL but I do not feel fulfilled AT ALL.  It's funny Friday night Matt and I went to dinner and we were talking and I was telling him that even with all the heartbreak I was happier this time last year then I am now. I think it is complex but mostly because I had a purpose, my life might not have been full of joy but it was fuller than it is now. Now I feel like I am wading in the deep end.
You know someone recently told me then QUIT, quit everything..... clean house and find what makes you happy but I said I can't do that. I have commitments, things I said YES too. She then replied well is your happiness worth not wanting to let someone else down. And sadly most of me wanted to say YES. AGAIN with the yes. I don't know what to do or where to go from here but typing this out is helpful and it is a start right? Or should I say YES it is! (eye roll)